为什么他的生日有面线，他的有红包，而他，你们打算帮他庆祝。。只有我的，你们却忘了一干二净。
这公平吗？



#493

its getting nearer and this time, i dont seem to be excited bout it...

is it becos of the age, or becos of the current situation between me and peisi, i dont see the need of celebrating it at all.... or should i say no mood at all..

its seems like it will be another normal sunday to me..
anyway, im not going to expect anything much...
plus its a sunday, i hope it will be a peaceful day for me..

#492

我們都傻

計算著為你流下了多少眼淚
就代表又對我的心 撒了 多少謊
但每次我都選擇 選擇相信
相信你是愛我的

倔強的以為我真的能改變你
看你裝無辜的眼神　我很窒息
難道你沒有看見　看見我對你的好
還是你忘了　那些數不清的愛情軌跡

你說我傻　傻在愛上只懂愛自己的人
我說你傻　傻在愛他你的眼睛騙不了人
我們都傻　傻在為一段沒有未來的愛情付出
還在期待會有奇蹟出現

你說我傻　傻在愛上沒有感情的分身
我說你傻　傻在愛他就固執的奮不顧身
我們都傻　傻在寧願被犧牲也不願放棄天真
還在期待會有奇蹟出現

誰沒有為愛做過傻事　只是問心無愧　諷刺也無所謂
我說我傻　傻在愛上沒有感情的分身
你說你傻　傻在愛他就固執的奮不顧身
我們都傻　傻在寧願被犧牲也不願放棄天真

還在期待會有奇蹟出現
還在期待會有奇蹟出現

#491



sometimes i really hate coming to my blog to update. it shows that i have no one to talk to and there is just so much i wanted to say.



haven't been feeling that great since the incident on thursday evening. it has never come to my mind that this thing will happen to me.



i always thought things will be better after few minutes or hours but never it will last for DAYS. till now, it is still silence. at times, silences really kills. . .i would rather everything be settled than keeping silent....Argghhh..seriously this is killing me.



im afraid that this silence will last till 1 of us leave. . . which i really dont wish to see.

i treasure you not only as a colleague but also a friend whom i can confide in, thats why it matters me so much when you dint talk or reply to my sms.



#490 almost forget this lil' space of mine. . .

#489

Suddenly miss Paikia So Much....
& this feeling isnt that good either..

:(

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#488

Such a long time since i came here. . .

actually i have nothing much to write or update. . .
life has always be the same for me. work.sch.work.sch.nth much.

the purpose im here to blog was cos of my paikia i got to know at my workplace.

hes actually a gd guy.hes the brother of my dong ke. . .and before i actually know they are brothers, i actually suspected but nv really go and ask dong ke till going to aug.

how we actually started talking to each other was rather funny and weird.

initially i went to ask dong ke, whether this fellow is his brother and he said yes. so i asked 'permission' from him whether i can add him in facebook. haha..

but before i actually added him in facebook, i make sure that he noes who im . . .
so there was actually motive of me talking to him on 10th Aug 10 & smiling at him on the Carnival Day(11th Aug 10). . .
so day after that smiling & talking, i added him in FB, he approved and i msged him asking him whether he know who the hell Im.. . ..

Well, he dint really know till i told him im from PMD.
so from there, we started FB msg during working hrs...and slowly i asked him for his msn, and every night we will msn.

im stunned given that we are 6yrs difference in age, we actually click well.Maybe becos both of us belong to Buay Paisey type.

How i gave Paikia name to him was an accident. I wanted to call him Mini Dong Ke or Dong Gua ...but after msning / msging him, the way he talks actually abit like Paikia, so this how i started to call him Paikia and he calls me LaoDa.

We din really talk to each other or pretend not to see each other in work place though online we can actually talk alot. (maybe not tat close).So we like msging each other during ofc hrs. The 1st time he called me LaoDa was on the Staff Meeting Day. I bumped into him when i was getting the food.
He said "LaoDa, nv help me take food ah" ..haha

Soon, we become closer cos i kept on asking him to go to the Recept to see the new receptionist. and slowly, everyday he will ask me to meet him at Reception there so he can see the new gal.

That time when i was doing the 1st Aid Checklist with my technician, he came along when we go for the 2nd part. It was the 1st time i actually talked that much to him face to face in school. and soon we would actually meet to go recept or canteen.

Knowing him for less than 1mth, but it seems like we have known for qt sometimes.
We can talk anything. I can disturb him as well.

the 1st time we walked to the station was on 27th Aug.10 where im going to CityHall to meet up with FJ & Nat for my post Bday Celebration.
With 1st Time, there were 2nd & 3rd time..

2nd time - meeting ps at station
3rd time - meeting ps at station
4th time - his last day, we took the same train cos im going to dg to meet peisi

on the 2nd time, i asked him to acc me till my lesson starts, cos lesson was held at campus, so i had 1hr time to slack. he actually agreed to acc me.but cos of boss still in ofc, i told him i will walk with him to the station and i will wait for ps. i tot he wld leave after that, but he actually accompained me till ps came. *he hates to wait for pple*

hes a nice guy..he actually rmembers the date of my bday and the date of my previous exams when i only told him once..Haha.
he kept saying i bo xim cos i told him that i dont really rmber how hhe looks like wheneve im at home. i always mixed him up with other guys. and he said i will forget him once he left.. . .. Haha..i told him i will try to rember his face before his last day.haha

and 2ndly i always forget the things he told me. esp the date he enlisting.(but now i rember!)
the dates he going for taekwondo match, the dates he going/coming back from tw and his enlistment date!! Won forget anymore cos i wrote down on my calendar.HAHA

i promise him that i will rmeber to wish him gd luck on his match day, and sms him the night before his tw trip and welcome him back and also his enlistment date.

our 1st lunch tgt was cos his lunch khaki was on leave. so he joined me and my colleagues . . .
2nd time lunch was at tea garden Mcdonald.
3rd time lunch anchorpt KFC cos he acc'ed to queensway to have my stuffs laminated.
4th time lunch margaret drive cos his lunch khaki not here again.
5th time lunch at tea garden Mcdonald - he returned me the Mcflurry that he owed me
6th time lunch was at canteen with my exec cos his lunch khaki ate at diff timing.

Things he Owed me
1. Orange Juice
2. McFlurry
3. Veins Photo
4. Dimple Photo
5. 3 times of coming to my ofc
6. Tai Yang Bing - ongoing

Things i Owe Him
1. Car Drawing
2. Watch Drawing
3. Laptop Drawing
4. Horse Drawing
5. Swensens Treat - Ongoing

When I asked him when his last day, he gave me 3 dates.
31st Aug, 3rd Sept & 9th Sept.

I remembered that time i told him, why so long...31st Aug 10, you can go liao. (actually i dont mean it)...but luckily he left on 9th Sep. . .

and 9th sep came so fast. . .
the night before his last day, he asked me..will i be sian or happy ? i told him i dont know, but i told him i dont wan to see him on his last day, cos my expression will be easily seen as I know i will be sad and sian.

& on this 2nd last day, when we walked to the station, i have nothing much to say and i have no idea what to talk to him either. Still i talked to him nonsense. Told him the joke i had with his brother, dong ke.When i dont even know if he understand what im trying to say. Haha.

On his last day, he came to my ofc. I saw him coming in, but i act busy. cos i really have no idea how to start a conversation with him. So he went to my colleague there and they chatted. I tried to talk rubbish again to him.Abit stupid. Haha.but luckily, everything still okay. i took pic of his dimple. Haha. We talked and stopped. He stood there looking around, not knowing what to do also. I 'scolded' him...haha..
By disturbing and 'scolding' is the best way to avoid embarrassment moments i guess.

after work, i went to wait for him. we walked to the station. we still talked and craked jokes. Way before reaching my stop, he said bye bye to me and said Don miss him... *wahpiang* i don noe how to reply and react. So i told him, havent reach, cant wait to ask me to go... *me feeling very awkward* den i faster changed topic and asked him how to go to the exit towards PS. llalalala..he teached me...den it reached my station. After saying bye to him, i alighted.

i kept telling myself, dont sms him or what...but still i cldnt control. I smsed him when i reached the class...
his reply was funny!
laoda, so fast jiu miss me liao huh.haha..
...smsmed till he went to bathe...

on the way home, we msned...
all the way till 2plus am...

if u asked me whether i miss him?
i would say still okay..even at the very night of his last day, im still okay, cos everything was like still the same...

but i guess monday, i will miss him like hell load!
cos everything won be the same. . .

anyway, i wish him all the best in his coming match (:

Hei Lao Shu Lao Da misses Bai Ma PaiKia

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#486

这是第一次我喜欢一个人却不敢告诉他。怕被他拒绝后，很难做朋友或说话，或我们会因此也避开对方。。。

见不到他，心里总是怪怪的。
见到他，却摆着一副爱理不理的态度。

真不知该怎么办才好？好懊恼啊！

该说还是放在心理？

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#485

OKAY!
I HEREBY ANNOUNCE...

IM SUPER STRESSED! ITS LIKE SO SUDDEN I HAD THIS KIND OF FEELING.

IM SCARED OF EXAMS AND I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP AND ESCAPE TO OTHER PLACE.

1 TIME FAILURE, IT LEAVE A GREAT IMPACT ON ME.
I THOUGHT I HAD GOTTEN OVER IT, BUT APPARENTLY I DINT.
ITS STILL BOTHER ME ALOT AND IM AFRAID OF 2ND TIME FAILURE.
I TRY TO GET MYSELF TO THE BOOKS, BUT NOTHING SEEMS TO GET INTO IT.
IM TIRED!
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO.

I KNOW STUDY AND REVISE, BUT THE MORE I TRY TO STUDY, THE MORE I CANT ABSORD ANYTHING.

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#484

Trying to work and blog at the same time. . .
Quite sick of looking at the invoices and POs.

Seriously when i logged in here, i really have no idea whats going in my mind and what am i going to blog either. Im just very sick of looking at the invoices and POs, doing the same thing everyday.
Its getting very meaningless and boring.

recently, i got comments from classmate and colleagues. . .
classmate said : i slim down alot
colleague said : i fat liao.

AiyO! so what is what?!
anyway, i think i fat liao! haha.

but my colleague added on ... he said at least he sees some changes in my dressing.
hmm.okay! i partially agree on it.at least now, can spot some bangles or big earrings on me whereby last time i find it so extra with all these on me

not young anymore! got to do something to myself.my face starts to show some sign of aging.
i hate the arrival of july...i used to love it so much...but now..i dont.Cos MY EXAMS is just 2 days after my bDay. SIAN!

WELL. ITS JUST AN IMPROMPTU ENTRY, THEREFORE I GOT TO END HERE.HA :)

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